
Psalm 34:6 This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him and saved him out of all his troubles.
As many who follow may know, I have had the privilege to know the Lord for over 40 years. During those decades, He has proved Himself to be a faithful, kind and loving Savior. And as I have learned to lean on Jesus, He has shown Himself to be a merciful Savior, never wavering, even in some very dark times.
This topical series will try to provide a snapshot of an ol’ fools prayers, the weakness and selfishness of his prayers, and the ever increasing goodness of God in His responses the those prayers.
I hope my witness to the goodness and faithfulness of God will be an encouragement to those reading, and will spur us all on to a deeper, more consistent time of being in the Lord’s presence.
Please visit with me as I tell the story of a faithful God and His care for an ol’ fool. Though David considered himself a poor man, I freely admit, I am just an “ol’ fool” looking to the Lord.
At the Couch
Introduction
In our last post, I spoke of offering conditions as a part of our prayer life. I seemed to lean into this style of praying for many years, and to be honest, I seem to slip into “bargaining” with God more than I want to admit.
After a bit of reflection, this style of communicating with my Father implies a number of problems.
A severe lack of trust. I simply need to have some control in the situation, as I am reluctant to let go of the problem. I am not convinced inside that He will take care of the problem, that He will provide an acceptable solution, or that He understands what I want! This is ludicrous, since He is the Creator, and the Sustainer, and He knows my heart and mind better than I. Yet I want to negotiate. Foolishness.
A severe lack of love. Of course many may think I am referring to my lack of love for my Savior, and of that I confess my shortcomings. But that is not what I am referring to in this point. As I negotiate with my Father in my prayers, I am exhibiting an understanding of the Father’s love for His child that is wholly inadequate, insulting and repulsive.
For those who have a child, consider, if you will, your own child coming to you, in need and unable to fix a situation. This child is helpless, ignorant of all that is going on in the family, and without the skills to gain a solution, little less maintain the life he or she lives. This child is completely dependent on the Father for his sustenance, for his protection, for his well being and his environment.
And this child comes to negotiate with you, trying to impress you with a promise, or worse yet a threat.
How ludicrous! It is as if the child considers himself on the same level, even as an equal to the Father. Incredulous!
To bargain with God reveals a lack of trust and a lack of understanding the love of God as our Father.
This understanding came home to my mind and heart clearly in the following prayer I want to recount to you.
The situation
We were strangers in a foreign land, and until all the paperwork gets filed, and all the forms are filled out, we were essentially guests in this nation. During this time of being guests, three of my children were detained and set on the course for deportation.
This story is about my daughter.
We came back from a family vacation in Mexico, and due to my daughter needing a medication for a condition, had some pills in the bottom of her purse. As we crossed the border into the USA, an agent found a pill, and pulled her to a separate room.
Within 10 mins, we were experiencing the nightmare of deportation again. (We had lost one son to deportation, and a second son had spent an extended time in deportation jail before being released. Now a third child. Although she was a strong young lady, she was not ready for the trial we were to go through.
By this time, both my wife and I were at our wits ends, desperate for relief, constantly in fear of hearing of our daughter being hurt in the jail, or of paperwork being lost and forcing the deportation prior to due process being completed. Our nerves were frayed and every minor life disturbance was magnified in our minds. We prayed every day, morning noon and night. We begged, pleaded and sought to find ways to get God working. We needed our daughter home.
Except I had not let go yet.
I was up early one morning, sitting on the couch, praying for the return of my daughter. The paper work was not progressing, the lawyer spoke of snags in the process, of the judge being difficult, of the courts being backlogged. I again pleaded with God to bring her home.
And then I realized He may need to take her away. It was a condition I had refused in my heart, a possibility I had never allowed to enter my thoughts. God had to bring her back.
He had to!
What did I need to offer to Him to get this result? How could I manipulate the Lord of All? I was in negotiation with my Creator, and it wasn’t going well!
That morning, I turned to kneel at the couch, and offered my daughter to the Lord, for His will to be complete in her life, for His glory. I laid down my wishes. May He do as He will, and may we be willing to follow no matter.
I would like to tell you that peace flowed through my soul, that my mind and heart felt at ease for the first time in months. I can’t confess that. I only knew that He was in control, that I was broken, and that He was working in the situation to accomplish His goals for my daughter and our family.
Months passed. Our prayers turned from desperation to simple requests. We began to see movement in the courts. As I had touched on this topic in a previous post (Let Me Tell You a Story – Disappointment), let me recount the courtroom proceedings from that posting.
After two court appearances, my daughter was asked to stay behind. The judge was like a machine with all the other subjects, spitting out decisions rapid fire, sealing the fate of many. When it came to her, the judge cleared the room, leaving only my wife and I with her. He proceeded to upbraid the injustice that had occurred in this incarceration, and declared her to be freed immediately.
She was coming home!
Prayer changes things. Prayer changes people.
God is good. He loves us when we are negotiating, untrusting, willful and stubborn. It is so much better to fall on His mercy and love instead of fighting it to get something that may not satisfy.
May we all seek to comply with the will of God in our lives, no matter the immediate loss we may think we will experience.
Thanks for joining and Considering The Bible with me. Your thoughts are always welcome, and I look forward to hearing of the faithfulness of God in your lives.









